I called the recruiter handling my application last night. Seems I must have bombed in the interview. From what I understand, I didn't ask enough questions about the company. What am I to ask them? I am the type of person that you tell me what to do and I'll work on it. When I come across a question, I will ask. I can't think of 8,000 questions to ask a prospective employer.

So, after I found out, I had a tiny breakdown. I hate rejection. Rejection is what makes me feel unworthy. And it seems like lately, I have had a lot of rejections on every front of my life. As I type this, I'm not feeling unworthy. Actually, I have curlers in my hair and working on my hair. I do have plans for today.

Last night, however, I did cry. It was natural. I was sad that a dream of mine, again, wasn't going to come true soon. Seems like all my dreams and plans fall through. I sat with my father, and he just let me cry. After I cried, I pulled myself together and we talked about what I want out of my life. Then, he sat down with me and taught me how to use the USAJobs site. That site always confused me. Glad to have my ex-military father help me. We did figure out that Beth, who doesn't have a college degree but worked at the AAFES Popeye's at Hunter for 5 months as a 17/18-year-old has a higher hire priority than me.

So, what would make me happy? Being a technological historian. I know, it sounds odds. But, I love history and I love technology. I was always good in history and enjoyed my computer classes. I don't think there's much of a market for a technological historian. I don't have a history degree. If money and time were no object, I would see about getting a Master's Degree from the School of History, Technology and Society at Georgia Tech. I thought about doing that 3 years ago. Unfortunately, money prevents me from doing that at the moment. I can still do it, I know, but not now.

In other news, I found out my high school class is having a 11-year reunion this summer. I don't know if I'll go or not, but I did add the community MySpace profile as a friend. I do want to go, believe it or not. While I'm still the same in some ways, I am NOT the same person as I was in high school. I think it would be cool.

[♪ Listening to: "Fast Car" - Tracy Chapman]

Thursday Threesome:

Onesome: The-- endless onslaught of junk snail mail: how much do you get each week? I'm thinking maybe we could use it as insulation in our houses... Too much.

Twosome: Convenience of-- a quick in and out? Do you have a convenience store nearby that is really convenient for you? There's a CVS about half a mile from my house, but I go to the Walgreens that's a mile away from my house. It's easier to get in and out of Walgreens than CVS. Plus, CVS is a little costly. I miss Revco. Revco was the pharmacy that CVS bought out here in the South.

Threesome: Extra cash--? When you need some, where do you get it? ...the ATM? ..."write for over" at the store? What is this 'cash' thing you speak of <g>? If I'm by my bank's ATM, I'll grab a $20.00 Most of the time, I get cash back from a debit card transaction.

[♪ Listening to: "Unanswered Prayers" - Garth Brooks]

On my way home from Fayetteville/Atlanta, I got to thinking how I love Georgia. I know the state has it's fair share of problems, but for me, it's home. I have lived 22 of my 29 years in this state. I lived in Augusta. I'm currently in Savannah. And I might be moving to the Atlanta area. But, there's just so much in this state that I am thankful for. Georgia has a coastline. Georgia has mountains. Georgia has the pine, live oak, and magnolia trees. Georgia has river and little wooded creeks that make you still feel in the wild, even as you drive over the creek. Georgia has that horrible red clay that stains your clothes and your mother gets angry you went and played in it in the first place. It may be hot and humid in the summer, and cold in the winter, but for the most part, it all balances out to nice weather. Today was a beautiful day as I made that drive down I-75 and I-16 back to town. I am glad to live in this state.

Once I got back to town, I stopped at the school. I stopped to see Joey to tell him about my stay with his parents. 2 old classmates that saw me and knew me specifically asked me did I come to see him as my reason for being on campus. I also caught up with some of my old classmates. I told them about the job interview. I even got to catch up with an old classmate I haven't seen in a while. I also spoke to my Computer Ethics professor, Dr. Reed. She saw me in the hall and asked how I was doing. It did me some good talking to her. She said things I needed to hear. I also caught up with Lindsey some more. I told her all about my trip. I also spoke my ex-boss, Dr. Reese. Stopping by the school allowed me to catch up with many people. I needed it.

While I was waiting for Joey to get off work, I did help one of his tutees. He's introduced me to her a few times, since she's a CS student. She's taking a class on US political and general Georgia history. Not only that, she's got the same professor I had for that class. Oh, I loved Dr. Lanier. Joey was helping her, and as their session was ending, she saw me and asked me how I was doing. I spoke to her and ended up taking over in helping her. I didn't mind since it was Georgia history - a subject I enjoy. Since I had answered the questions myself, 4 years ago (can't believe it was that long ago!), I remembered what I did and had a discussion about the questions. We talked about how Lester Maddox got to be governor and how the state is changing and progressing over time. Part of our discussion also dealt with Charlayne Hunter-Gault's 1988 commencement speech at UGA. While I was talking about the faults the state has, I also acknowledged the beauty state has. If anything, helping this tutee just reinforced my feelings for this state.

[♪ Listening to: "Everything Changes" - Kathy Troccoli]

Like the title says, I am in Fayetteville, GA, at Joey's folks' home. I had the job interview today in Atlanta. I hope I did well. They said the recruiter coordinating this will get back to me this week. I knew the area the interview was at, but I didn't realize that I really knew the area. Today's office was just down the road from the Georgia Tech Wesley Foundation house. In fact, I've eaten at a few of the joints across the street. If I get the job, it won't be at this office, however.

I stayed an extra night to help the folks with some computer issues. Plus, I didn't feel rushed to get to the interview and back home this time around. I also think his parents enjoy my company. His mother even helped me with my hair. I could use all the help with it that I can. I watched what she did. I couldn't remember what my mother did to get my curl to stay, but his mother did it, too. Now, with some practice, I think I can do it. I really do appreciate all their help.