AASU Graduation
Uploaded by peachy92.

Today was the commencement ceremony of the school. I know several people that graduated today. I decided to support them. I also attended the practice ceremony yesterday. Also, I figured seeing the ceremony live would inspire me to stick it out for the last 7 months I have left before I get my Bachelor's Degree.

It was quite interesting. The first school to give out degrees was the School of Computing. If no females are graduating from the Computer Science department in December, I will end up being the only female from the School to graduate. After all the Bachelor's Degrees were awarded, the Master's Degrees were awarded.

I am seriously thinking of getting a Master's Degree now. The older lady that sat next to me at the ceremony (I sat alone) asked if I was a teacher. I told her I was a student. She thought I was pursuing my Master's. I told her just my Bachelor's in December, but I had thought of getting a Master's Degree. She doesn't even know me, but told me I could do it. I have several people in the School of Computing that have told me to go for it. So, now my thing is where to go, when to go, and in what subject.

The sweetest thing at the ceremony was when Dr. William J. Daugherty, on of the Criminal Justice, Social and Political Science professors, was asked to come forward on the stage and present his wife, Susan, with her Master's degree cloak, instead of the school president. I just thought that was so beautiful and they were lucky to even do that. You see, Dr. Daugherty was one of the Iranian Hostages back in 1979. That had to be a special moment for them.

I'm in a melancholy mood at the moment. I have such a wide, promising future in front of me; I'm scared to hell. I'm not sure what to do. I just feel so alone.

[♪ Listening to: "Breakaway" - Kelly Clarkson]

Thursday Threesome:

Onesome: Innate-- talents? Do you have any you're willing to share? Maybe perfect pitch? ...or the ability to tie a cherry stem into a knot with your tongue? How about a "sense of direction"? Surely you can toss something out to the gang to to wonder about... I have a sense of direction. I'm not that talented, that I know of, but I bet there are some talents I haven't discovered, yet.

Twosome: Organizational-- style? "A place for everything and everything in its place"? ...or maybe, "the bills are somewhere in that stack" and the calendar still says "2006"? What's your system? Two words: organized chaos. Just until I get out of college and out of this house.

Threesome: Skills-- How are you about power tools? ...and tools in general? Are you a user or do you call someone to assist? I think it all depends on the tool in question.

	Tenderheart Bear You are thinker, organizer, peacekeeper, and leader all in one. You have a power to command attention and people listen to you. However, you are often so concerned about not hurting others' feelings that you don't tell them what they need to hear and this gets you both into trouble. But you always have loyal friends to help you out.
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

I cheered up last night quite a bit. I realized that I'm fulfilling an dream of mine from when I was in second grade. Back then, I would play around and dream about marrying and move to Seattle. Over time, with the grunge era and hearing about all that rain in Seattle, I came to realize Seattle wasn't the place for me. However, Seattle was quite exotic to a second grade girl in Augusta, GA. I'm not moving there, but I'll be seeing it person. I think that's cool. We've got a hotel room reserved for the extra night the Georgia congregation is spending out on the Left Coast. I looked up where the hotel is in relation to the Space Needle. We're a mile from it. We'll also be in walking distance of Pike Place Market. It all sounds cool. I just wonder if I'll have enough memory for all the pictures I plan to take on the trip. I have 3 1GB cards. I'll have my laptop to download the files so I can reuse my cards for the time in Tacoma. I know a day won't be enough to experience everything.

So, instead of being depressed about not getting MySQL working or being single, I'm going to look forward to my trip out west.

[♪ Listening to: "Get To Me" - Train]

Wesley Foundation Lunch
Uploaded by peachy92.

Last night, as I was going to bed, I was close to crying. I was listening to Baseball Tonight talk about the death of Josh Hancock, a St. Louis Cardinals pitcher. It not how he died that got me. It was the fact that he was my age. It was the fact that they said he was single and that the team was his family. Kind of scary, believe it or not. I don't want to die anytime soon. And the fear of dying alone scares me.

Today was a our last Wesley lunch for the semester. We said goodbye to the guy pictured, Hale, pastor of Trinity United Methodist Church on Tybee Island. He's been assigned to a church in Moultrie, GA. With the end of the semester and expecting to say goodbye to some people, including those I don't want to see go, plus with me approaching my last semester as a undergrad, it's a little depressing. Hale's sermon today was about advice, both solicited and unsolicited. Over my time in school, I have gotten plenty of advice.

I am scared. I am scared of what the future holds. I wish I can control it, but I know I can't. I'll just have to roll with the punches.

I am also frustrated. For the past couple of days, I have been trying to install Apache, PHP, and MySQL. Well, I got Apache and PHP working with the help of Renee, but I can not get PHP and MySQL to work. I finally got MySQL working today. I had to uninstall McAfee anit-virus and firewall and install Zone Alarm and Avast. And after my 4^th MySQL installation, MySQL is working. So I think. I can't get PHP to communicate with MySQL to get phpMyAdmin to work. It's making me feel stupid. I can't get the ASP.Net service to work on this laptop, either. I just wish I had someone in my pocket to help me and wouldn't treat me like an idiot. Maybe in a few days it will all work out. I just know at the moment, I'm ready to chuck my laptop against a wall. I've got to get this all working on my laptop for my Senior Project.

I know things will work out in the end. They have to. I am just tired. I need an escape. I need to be rescued.

[♪ Listening to: "Somewhere Someday" - *NSYNC]