I spent today watching some movies and working on some school work. The movies I watched were Legally Blonde and Stagecoach. I love Legally Blonde. It helped inspire me to go back to school. I love how she challenged herself to show that she could do it to those that didn't believe. In the end, it was Elle that learned a valuable lession. She didn't need to prove herself to anyone. She had people believing in her. In my life, I have always had my parents and Nancy, my second mother, believe in me. That's more than Elle had. I don't know why I relate to this movie, but I do. Now to find my Emmitt, and I'll be set.

I watched Stagecoach with my father. Damn was John Wayne good looking at 32! I really like the storyline between his character and Dallas, the call girl. Similar to Emmitt in Legally Blonde, Ringo saw Dallas as a strong, smart, vibrant woman. As we watched the movie, we remarked about what would happen in the film if they remade it today. Quite a scary proposition if you think about!

I also worked on my Ethics project and a paper that's due the 12^th for Theater class. I needed to do the Ethics, but figured it wouldn't hurt to start the Theater paper. I hope to finish it tomorrow.

[♪ Listening to: "Could It Be You" - *NSYNC]

My junior and senior proms did not see me attend them. I was a nerd. I wouldn't have been able to find a date. My parents didn't have the money for me to get a dress. So, I didn't go to them. I don't think I missed anything for not attended.

However, it's been 10 years since high school. I'm different. I'm still a nerd, but I don't have the horrible glasses I had then. I wear contacts. I will wear makeup. And on the 19^th, I'm going to get all dressed up and attend 2 events at school. One is the ODK ceremony. That's around 5 PM that night. At 7 that night, in the same location, the School of Computing will have a banquet. I'm going to both. I'm probably going to go alone. That won't bother me. I'm used to going solo. But by God, I am going to look nice. These are business related events. I need to look nice and make some contacts.

I made a hair appointment to get a trim and styling done for the event that day. I also went out and picked up some blush. I spoke to my friend, Heather, last night. She's going to at least one of the events, as well. We're going out to find me a nice bra that will give me boobs. I'll have to get her to help me get some shoes for these events, as well. She helped me get ready last year, too. A lot has happened to me in the past year. In a way, I want to celebrate the good.

I attended some business at school today. I spent 3 hours working on the IIR project I'm a member of. I haven't done anything this semester, mainly because I didn't have the time. Sharing 4 vehicles with 5 people left me as the odd one out. Now that I can go when I want to go, I can work again. I spent my time working on the display we'll be presenting at this year's TechFest, hosted by the Creative Coast. I signed up for it today. I don't know who else from the project will go with me, but I am going. That's the 27^th.

I also stopped by the Career Services Center at school. I got some résumé information and other information needed for the job seeker. Figured it wouldn't hurt me to get that information. I am scared of the future, but I'm bracing for it.

[♪ Listening to: "Walk On By" - Britney Spears]

Time After Time
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Thursday Threesome:

Onesome: Yankees-- How about it? Are you a baseball fan? ...or would you rather watch the grass grow? I am a baseball fan, but I can't stand the Yankees. Can't help it, I'm from the south! Atlanta Braves forever! Other baseball teams are acceptable.

Twosome: Opening-- Day? Opening Season? Mervyn's "Open, open, open" commercials? What opening do you wait for? The music store when there is a new CD I REALLY want. There's not much, now that I'm older, that I have to rush out to get.

Threesome: Day-- by day we learn something: playing hardball, what have you learned this week? (Okay, discoveries count...) Well, Tuesday, I learned I am a smart girl with potential. Today, learned about some juicy gossip.

This picture in this entry is on I took today in the IT lounge. Renee and Bobby remarked that looking over to to the clock in the trash can looked like art. I whipped out my camera and took this shot. The only other big things I had today were having a discussion with my friend, Heather, and gave my last performance in theater class.

Scholarship Helps Local High-Tech Students Now, I'm not a recipient of this scholarship. It's only about $1000.00. I get a better financial package from my CSEMS scholarship. However, the guy in the article is a fellow ACM member and classmate of mine. We're currently working on an Ethics project together. I thought about applying for the scholarship, but I decided against it. Maybe if I pursue a Master's in CS at Armstrong. Again, that's an if. I don't know what I'd be doing for a Master's, if I get one.

I did get asked by another IT classmate of mine, that has been in my classes for the past 2 years, if I was thinking of getting a Master's. He's wanting to get one. He figures for him, Kennesaw State would be best for him. I told him I'm still not sure what I want my Master's in.

Earlier in the day, I was talking to yet another IT classmate. This one is behind me in the program. We were talking about CSEMS when we started talking about classmates that did have the scholarship. Did was the correct word. The person in question doesn't have it anymore. Oh, the conversation was interesting. It just reaffirmed some beliefs I've had for the past year and a half. We just shared our grief over how we're students that care about our grades and how this person just didn't seem to care.

I can't believe how much I have to do soon. 1 10-page paper. 2 5-page paper. 2 2-page papers. 2 or 3 award ceremonies. 1 Tech Fest with a presentation. And a partridge in a pear tree. Actually, it's planning for my trip to Tacoma. Tell me it all pays off. Summer better be a blast.

That's it for now.

[♪ Listening to: "Never Gonna Be Your Lady" - Faith Hill]

Why We Banned Legos

I just saw something about this story on the TV. I glanced at the article, and it got me thinking of my childhood. When my cousin wouldn't share his Legos with my sister, my mom got my sister her own set of building blocks. I got caught in the middle of it because I was allowed to play with the Legos. I was banned from playing with my sister's blocks, along with my cousin. It wasn't a plesant thing for the 3 of us. I doubt my sister and cousin even remember this event. However, I'm pretty sure that somewhere in life, it taught the 3 of us the hard cold facts of life. Life isn't fair.

While I think the dicussion about why they need to share the Legos is a good thing, I think banning the Legos at first was dumb. Instead of allowing Legotown to develop as large as it did, the teachers should have told the kids that structures could only stay together so long. With my Legos, my structures could only stay up as long as I was playing with them. When I finished, I tore the house down and place its pieces, along with the ones I didn't use, back into my offical Lego carrying case. It encouraged me to build more structures and using my block planning skills.

And in my field, Legos are still a major thing. The School of Computing use them to develop engineering projects and software. I just got upset I missed the last time they played with Legos! By banning the Legos, the teachers were stiffling creativity. Think of the number of engineering students and recent grads that got an interesting in their field based on hours of playing with Legos.

I had a much better today than I did yesterday.

I spent more late morning/early afternoon in the ACM lounge today working on my Graphics Design work. I had 2 lessons to do. That class was simple today. I just had to show him my work and answer a few questions for the professor. He also handed back our critiques for Milestone 2 on the project we're working on. When he handed it back to me and said great work, the guys around me just laughed. They figured my grade out without looking. They pretty much know I kick butt in the grades department. I got a 100 on the assignment. I don't even have to do much for Milestone 3. What he wants us to add to the project I already did. This time, he'll get another Flash element I made.

Theater class started this afternoon with several us wondering what stank like eggs in the Fine Arts building. Some of my classmates couldn't smell it. I was one that did. I ended up opening the windows in the room to air the place out. We don't know what caused it, but it was bad. We also teased one of our classmates about the makeout sessions he has with his girlfriend prior to class. He played along with it. We spent the rest of our time spent in lecture with comedic quips interjected from the audience.

The only other thing I did today was talk with some of the other guys in regards to various school related items. I have a lot on my plate at school.

[♪ Listening to: "Hold Me" - Fleetwood Mac]

ACM Fun
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This morning, I was reading a discussion about For Better or For Worse. In the discussion, someone posted a Dilbert Sunday strip. It was fairly recent. I so related to it. In it, a girl asks one of the engineers about a date. The girl is smart and attractive. The engineer's response to the girl was that she a "perfect monster." He ran off. She says hi to Dilbert. He asks what's wrong with her. Implying something is wrong with her because she's attracted to his type. I laughed. And inside, I cried. I cried because I identify to it. One one side, I am the geek engineer who feels that no one will every be attracted to me. On the other side of the same coin, I'm the attractive female that's the perfect monster: beauty and brains. And no matter what, I'm afraid to be alone.

I'm also afraid to take a chance. I was talking to an old friend tonight, and she was telling me I should ask someone we were talking about to coffee. I can't do that. I am so shy and afraid to to that. I hate to fail and hear the words no. I feel like he's out of my league. I am so screwed up from being that geeky girl that no one really liked growing up. I fear no one will like me. The reasons are endless: I'm fat; I'm ugly; I'm not this; I'm not that. And if someone does, it's just someone I won't be attracted to. And after the fiasco that was Mike, I'm afraid to try again. I don't want to invest time in a person that won't invest time in me.

I don't know where this leaves me, other than I am alone. My dad says I have plenty of friends, but not really one that I can really depend on. I blame that on my military brat upbringing. You don't know who you can trust. I am afraid of trusting people. I rather wall myself up to not be hurt. And most of all, I miss my mom, my best friend. I miss the one person I could share these thoughts with. I feel like a crazy dork even posting these thoughts. Then again, I do believe by posting them, they'll help one other person out there that needs them, too.

In other news, I've been thinking about getting a Master's degree. The subject is still undecided. I have one of my IT professors wanting me to stay at Armstrong and get the CS degree. A CS Master's student I know, who's about to graduate, suggested business in his advice. Armstrong lacks business, but Savannah State has it. And there's always the standby of history with Georgia Tech's History and Sociology of Technology and Science degree. I don't think getting recommendations will be a problem. I already have one promised to me when I'm ready.

Mainly, I'm just scared as hell. I don't know what's ahead for me and I have no control.

In happier news, this picture is from this month's ACM meeting. We played a little game before our guest speaker spoke. This is a shot of me active. Proof I participate as well! I'm one of 3 females active in ACM.

[♪ Listening to: "I Go To Extremes" - Billy Joel]

Playing Apples to Apples
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I have been quite busy the past few days. Thursday night was spent working on repairing my laptop with my father. It still won't charge a battery, but it's easier to use the A/C cord now. No jury-rigging the cord to get the computer to recognize it.

Friday was spent with my Wesley Foundation family having dinner at Melissa's house. Dinner was nice. I have found out that I enjoy fried zucchini and squash. After dinner, we played Apples to Apples. In addition to the regulars of Lindsey, the 3 Chrises, Callum, and Ashlee, two other students joined us for the dinner portion of the night. The only regular missing was Jessie. It was a fun night. We had 2 digital cameras for the night. I have another camera I got for about $100 at Wal-Mart to carry on me whenever I go off. After my car accident, I've been needing a smaller camera for such events. I think we all had fun with the camera. Melissa's Chris shot a picture of his snout. Ashlee took pictures with the small camera. Callum and Lindsey also took shots with my good camera. There were a few more shots of me from this night. Melissa also called on me to go out to the school and bring school Chris and Ashlee to dinner. So I played chauffeur for the night. My dad hugged me and told me I was a good girl for that.

Saturday afternoon was spent at Bonaventure taking some photos. I experimented with taking some black and white shots. I can't remember what else I did between coming home from that and watching Saturday Night Live last night. Peyton Manning was the host. It was an okay episode. Some skits worked and others didn't. I thought the ESPN and the NLF volunteering skits were the best.

Today was really busy. I woke up to help my dad find my brother in Atlanta. We didn't go up there, but still had to find him. We did it via talking to my brother and Google maps. The kid has no sense of directions. After that, I help my dad with installing our new living room floor. When I wasn't working on that, I was working on school work. I worked on my Ethics project and my Senior Project. The Ethics Project work was done at school with my group members. We figured what we didn't get done today, we'd finish tomorrow after our ACM meeting. The 4 of us do participate in ACM. We also discussed what needs to be done for ACM, like getting more members active. Seems like I'm going to be more involved in the fall. I told Charles that I'd see about replacing Aric next semester, since Aric will be graduating.

Okay,this is typed out now, so I'm going to bed. I could use the sleep.