A Nightmare Starring My Mother.

I had a nightmare. My mother wasn't dead. She abandoned us. She ran away with a guy that wasn't my father, never to call us. One day, out of the blue, she returned, with the guy she ran off with. They came back in a RV. When she came into the house, which wasn't our house to begin with, I wanted to beat her. I was angry with her.

Of course, in real life, thankfully, this never happened. It's just an allegory to her death. In a way, I feel she abandoned us with her death. I know that's not the truth. She would do anything for us. I wish I knew what transpired for this dream to happen.

So, I'm in a somber mood for this morning. I fear I may cry. All because of this nightmare.

[♪ Listening to: "Gunning Down Romance" - Savage Garden]

Ne Me Laissez Pas Être Votre Plaisanterie Personnelle, S'il Vous Plaît!

I had a bad day today. It deals with my paycheck. First, I lost it. Once I found out it was found, I had to run around the School of Computing to find it. First I was told it was in 129. Next, it was in the office. Then Chris had it. Being there are 2 Chrises in the School of Computing, no telling which on had it. I saw the CSEMS Chris on way back down where both Chrises were located. He told me the other one, my UNIX professor, had it. Thankfully, I was to be in UNIX class. So, I got my check. The other problem is I thought the check was for one more dollar than it was for. I disputed this fact at the bank. Thankfully, I came home after that and went straight to bed! I needed it!

I did take care of some financial things for the family this morning. Got 2 major bills paid. However, I was not able to transfer my phone from Nicki's account to my dad's account. That was a bummer.

Thankfully, it's the Labor Day weekend!

[♪ Listening to: "Wanting Out" - Michelle Branch]

Flubbing A Quiz…Again.

For today's Calc quiz, it was essentially the same as one I took last year. I remember the part that clobbered me on this quiz last year. I made sure I got that part right. However, I got a part I got right last time wrong this time.

During the break between classes today, I hung out in the IT lounge with other IT students, like Daniel, Mary, and Renee. The other day, I sent the girls a link to Charles The Technician. It's a blog that just started this month. I found it via Blog Explosion. It's right down the IT tech's sense of humor. Mary didn't get the link, so Renee and I were describing it to her. We loaded it up and all of us in the lounge had a good laugh at some of the stories. It got us to talk about our IT experiences. Call it IT bonding.

I'm installing VisualStudio.NET, AGAIN! The discs I got last week were wonky. One disc copied twice. So, I didn't get the second disc at all. Today, I went back into 129 and made Adam fix it. He wasn't on the clock, but he told me yesterday he'd do it. As he was burning the discs, he was playing World of Warcraft, or World of Warcrack as it's called in the house. I told him that all three of my siblings play it. I don't know if he thought Nicki was coming to school. He was bummed at the thought of leaving Armstrong when my sisters start Armstrong.

That's the thing about this family. It seems like someone in this town knows at least one of us. I'm the surprise. Most people know that Nicki, Matthew, and Beth are related. It's when they hear my talk about my siblings or discover my last name is it that they find out I'm related to them. However, there's Anthony. He's an ex-classmate/co-worker of mine. I met him before he met Nicki. He found out that Nicki was my sister, and not the other way around. But usually, it shocks people when they find out I'm their oldest sister.

Okay,this Visual Studio is installing correctly. Now, I can do my Client/Server work at home, if needed.

[♪ Listening to: "Love Me Like That" (w/Sheryl Crow) - Michelle Branch]

The Thursday Threesome: Fluffy Bunny Rabbits

Thursday Threesome:

Onesome: Fluffy-- is as fluffy does! It's almost lemon meringue season at that pie shop. Do you do fluffy pies? ...or is it fruit all the way for you? (Okay, Southerners: go ahead and expound on rhubarb...) I'm not a big pie eater. The only pie I like is chocolate.

Twosome: Bunny-- slippers? Yes? No? Barefoot? Shoes? What do you schlep around the house in when it's cold outside? Living in the south, I'm usually barefoot. If I get really cold, I'll put on socks.

Threesome: Rabbits-- Have you ever had little furry pets? What varieties? Are there any in your future? Never had a bunny. I wanted one. However,we have plenty of kitties at the house and 2 dogs.

Oh, and school is on for the day. I'll probably wear my flip flops today. There's bound to be a puddle or 3 on campus today.

[♪ Listening to: "Tonight" - New Kids On The Block]

"Straight From My Heart I Still Miss You So"

The sun's still warm and most days are good
The world still turns like you said it would
But this pain seems to never let me go
And there is really no movin' on
There's only going along

And I will always be
Better for you loving me
Better for the times we shared
That travel with me everywhere
And I will always try
To hold my head up to the sky
If only just to let you know
That straight from my heart
I still miss you so

If I could I would gladly trade
A thousand tomorrows for one yesterday
There are so many things that I would say
You're a part of every memory
That lives on in me

And I will always be
Better for you loving me
Better for the times we shared
That travel with me everywhere
And I will always try
To hold my head up to the sky
If only just to let you know
That straight from my heart
I still miss you so

And I will always be
Better for you loving me
Better for the times we shared
That travel with me everywhere
And I will always try
To hold my head up to the sky
If only just to let you know
That straight from my heart
I still miss you so

That straight from my heart
I still miss you so

Richard Marx wrote this song as a response to losing his father. I had to listen to it tonight.

After getting home from school, showering, and having dinner, I checked the mail. In it was a video of a Chatty Cathy retreat my parents went to two years ago. Earlier, my father was crying and wanted to hear my mother's voice. After I found the video in the mailbox, I went to the shed, where my father was, and we watched the video for my mother until he could take it no more.

I miss her. We all do. My father's having a bad night over it. It started before the video. Graysie's been running outside the past couple of days. My dad believes it's because she wants my mother. I believe it, too. Since my mother's death, Graysie hasn't been the same. She knew my dinner tonight was a piece of KFC chicken. My mother would give her bites when we had KFC for dinner. She didn't snap it up when I gave her a piece tonight. I guess it just doesn't taste the same from my fingers.

[♪ Listening to: "The Hardest Thing" - 98°]

Maybe School Will Be Canned For Thursday.

That is the current path for Tropical Storm Ernesto. I do not want to be stuck at school when it strikes. The campus likes to flood. I've seen it for Earl '98, Charley '04, and Tammy '05. In fact, it was because of Earl that AASU day was moved to October. I think the school liked it at that time, that it's stuck for October.

Thankfully, since I've lived here, we've only gotten tropical storms. We lose power for maybe a day or two and have some local flooding. However, it's not fun.

It guess it's wait and see.

Graysie Is Missing My Momma…

And so am I. I think the every funderful, wonderful friend is coming in the next few days. That probably explains why I'm feeling down. I'm just worried about my after college life. Where will I get a job? Can I get one in Savannah. If not, do I move to Southern high tech areas like Atlanta and Raleigh? Could I survive those cities. I have to start thinking about these things in the next year. By December 2007, I will be a college grad. Yes, I'm scared. I've discussed it with my father. He told me to go where I need to go. He also wants me to be a government worker. He felt between Raleigh and Atlanta, I should go to Raleigh. I know it will all work out in the end.

My Phi Kappa Phi Forum came today. My father was impressed with it. It's printed on thick paper. He made a remark that smart, rich people are members. I've got the smarts, but I lack the money. In the chapter news section, there is a whole page devoted to Armstrong's First Chapter Initiation. People I recognize in the photos include my Civ I professor, my Database professor, my Astronomy professor, my Calculus professor, and a English professor. 118 members were initiated in that class. I doubt I'll ever get a mention in the magazine. I guess if I get an award at the Spring Banquet next year, I'll submit the info.

I worked today. We got a Linux server in the lab. I had no luck installing Flash onto the computer. I will have to bring it up tomorrow. I also worked a bit on the site. I hope to have my revamp of the site up, soon. Linux class was a snoozefest. In Film, we watched The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari. It's a silent German flick. Crazy flick. And at Wesley lunch, today's sermon was given to us in the form of a reading of You Are Special by Max Lucado. Cute children's book.

[♪ Listening to: "I Will Be Your Friend" - Amy Grant]