Starr's Mill
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Have you just ever been angry at someone and know it's a dumb reason for being angry at the person? I'm feeling that way with Joey right now. Since I got up here, I would just like to talk to him. I know he's busy with his family and his transportation situation is the same as it was in Savannah, but still, 10 minutes on the phone with him just joking about sure can brighten my day. I can't believe it's been a year since he and I just sat around, the two of us, working on ACM stuff. Prior to that day, we were just causal classmates. So, what made that day special for changing our relationship? I don't know. However, we both admit that's the day we realized one another was a friend.

Some people accuse me of following him up here to the Atlanta area. The truth is, I didn't. Even before that day a year ago, I knew I would probably have to move to Atlanta to get a decent job And Beth told me she knew my goal of moving to Atlanta was something she's always remember me having. In fact, I'm living around the part of Atlanta I wanted to move to as a child. It's just nice to know he's not far if I need him. Now, if he can get a job and have his current dream come true, I'd be happy. His current dream is to move back to Cobb County. He used to live up here for about 3 years a decade or so ago. Since his sweetheart died, that has been his goal. In fact, he took me to go see an apartment complex he once lived in last week. I think it was more for him to walk down memory lane than for me to get a place of my own.

And speaking of the sweetheart, the whole situation with her has kept me thinking for the past 7 months since he first mentioned her to me. His biggest prayer was to get her back. And since she's died, he's been sad and depressed and at times, it's brought me down. He's done a few things that has hurt me in his way of coping with missing her. I don't think he knows that he's hurt me. I don't let him know. He's in mourning, and he's the only that can make himself get out of that rut. I can just be a good friend. Sometimes, that means backburning your feelings to help someone else.

But, God did answer his prayer. He got the sweetheart back. Unfortunately, she died. That's no one's fault. I wish he would quit looking at the negative of her being gone and realized how lucky he was to have her back for the 2 months he did. I like to think God also made her last months happy because he was back in her life. It's a situation with no true explanations. Nothing anyone says can change the past, make things better now, and bring her back. And like I said, only he can save himself. I wish he could see there is more to life and that sometimes, some prayers are unanswered and other partially because God has something else better down the road. It's a hard lesson I've been learning for 29 years now.

Funny as I wrote that last paragraph, "Dreaming With a Broken Heart" was on. But, I thank God for this past year of friendship from him, and hope the next year is even better. I know I am a better person because of him.

And I would have seen him yesterday if he was home, but he wasn't. Maybe I'll see him tomorrow when I go to visit his mother. She called me today to see how I was. We made plans for me to attend Mass with her and her husband and his aunt. I was out their way to tour little Senoia, GA and to find Starr's Mill. I saw downtown Senoia when Joey took me to The Kiddo's ballgame last month. I thought it was a great place to take some photos. And not far from it in Fayette County is the above pictured Starr's Mill. I need to visit it one afternoon near twilight. I think it would look awesome in those photos. The midday sun just washed out the mill. Starr's Mill is a county park in Fayette County. I think it would be cool to have a picnic there. I drove through Peachtree City to get to Senoia, but to be honest, there isn't much to be seen in that town. It's a planned community and everything is located off the road, hidden behind trees. It looked bland and like it had no character.

As for me and my new life. Well, I'm tired at the moment. Still no phone, Internet, nor cable. I feel cut off from the rest of the world. My apartment is nice. Tonight is going to be open mic night here, so I'll see what it's like. Dobbins Air Reserve Base isn't too far, and the planes going in to land there fly over the complex. While in the pool today, I felt like a kid again remember when in Nashville, being in the hotel pool with the planes on approach to BNA flying over. It's also like a piece of Savannah's with me, too. The only planes that ever flew over our house in Savannah were the military planes. I used the gym for a bit yesterday as well. My TV died, so I had to get another one. Made sure I got a protection plan with it. Scooter and Graysie are adjusting the best they can. In addition to going to spend time with Mary Ellen and Harold, I spoke to my Wesley Foundation pal, Jessie. I hope to get with her soon. She's glad to have a friend from Savannah up this way as well, just like I'm glad Joey's not far.

I'm processing so much right now. I'm on overdrive.

[♪ Listening to: "Beverly Hills " - Weezer]

Posted by Shawn at June 20, 2008 5:39 PM in Flickr Photos, General.