I called the recruiter handling my application last night. Seems I must have bombed in the interview. From what I understand, I didn't ask enough questions about the company. What am I to ask them? I am the type of person that you tell me what to do and I'll work on it. When I come across a question, I will ask. I can't think of 8,000 questions to ask a prospective employer.

So, after I found out, I had a tiny breakdown. I hate rejection. Rejection is what makes me feel unworthy. And it seems like lately, I have had a lot of rejections on every front of my life. As I type this, I'm not feeling unworthy. Actually, I have curlers in my hair and working on my hair. I do have plans for today.

Last night, however, I did cry. It was natural. I was sad that a dream of mine, again, wasn't going to come true soon. Seems like all my dreams and plans fall through. I sat with my father, and he just let me cry. After I cried, I pulled myself together and we talked about what I want out of my life. Then, he sat down with me and taught me how to use the USAJobs site. That site always confused me. Glad to have my ex-military father help me. We did figure out that Beth, who doesn't have a college degree but worked at the AAFES Popeye's at Hunter for 5 months as a 17/18-year-old has a higher hire priority than me.

So, what would make me happy? Being a technological historian. I know, it sounds odds. But, I love history and I love technology. I was always good in history and enjoyed my computer classes. I don't think there's much of a market for a technological historian. I don't have a history degree. If money and time were no object, I would see about getting a Master's Degree from the School of History, Technology and Society at Georgia Tech. I thought about doing that 3 years ago. Unfortunately, money prevents me from doing that at the moment. I can still do it, I know, but not now.

In other news, I found out my high school class is having a 11-year reunion this summer. I don't know if I'll go or not, but I did add the community MySpace profile as a friend. I do want to go, believe it or not. While I'm still the same in some ways, I am NOT the same person as I was in high school. I think it would be cool.

[♪ Listening to: "Fast Car" - Tracy Chapman]

Posted by Shawn at April 25, 2008 10:31 AM in General.