Last night, Ben graduated from Savannah Tech. He earned dual Associates degrees. His mother sent an invitation to the whole family. Yesterday was also Nicki's birthday. Nicki went to spend the next couple of days with her boyfriend, Cameron. The rest of us went with Beth to see her boyfriend walk the stage.

The guest speaker kept the keynote speech short. One of the stories he brought up was the one of Captain Plumb and the parachute packer. Tears welled in my eyes, but I didn't cry. I wanted to, but didn't. I just started thinking, which for me, is never a good thing when I think about life and my purpose. I realized I'm happier as a parachute packer than I am parachuting.

Right now, whether I like it or not, I am going to have to make a jump. A huge jump. On a professional level, I have a job interview Monday in Atlanta. I've been through 2 phone interviews for it so far. Now, they want to see me in person. I have taken care of arrangements for a place to stay the night before. The company sounds interested in me. I hope I get the job. I need one. It will be scary moving to Atlanta and living on my own, but I need it.

The other jump is having to let go. I don't want to let go, but I must. I have to let go of my family. I don't want to do it. Mainly, I don't want to leave my dad. I would be leaving my dad around the same time my brother is leaving, too. My brother is planning on moving with Jessica to Brunswick. He's going apartment hunting next weekend. And in addition to losing my father, I have to say goodbye to Joey. He graduates college in 17 days. A few days after that, he's moving home to Fayetteville, GA. I don't want to do that. I have enjoyed hanging out with him and his friendship this past year. Even when he had a major lost, in a way, he was there for me. He needed me as a friend, but by needing me, he was there for me and made me feel good. I'm going to miss the hanging out to watch a movie, the late nights working on his homework, his making dinner for me, or just talking to me on the phone. Our friendship won't be the same. His friendship spoiled me in a way no other friendship has.

I know change is a part of life, but I don't like change. Change upsets me. But, I know this job opportunity is a big one. And I really believe God was listening to me earlier today when I got the call to meet on Monday. I was feeling down and the call made me feel better. I wouldn't be totally leaving my family. Atlanta's half a day away. I can make the drive. God has some big plans for me right now that I can't explain. And I know He's been talking to me. I need to just have faith in him.

[♪ Listening to: "Echo" - Trapt]

Posted by Shawn at April 16, 2008 6:21 PM in General.