Ever seen The Simpsons episode "Lisa's Rival"? I'm feeling like Lisa in that episode at the moment. I have no reason to feel that way. I'm 28-years-old. I should not be playing these games. I guess my fear is not getting the Outstanding IT student award next spring. I really want that award. I don't want to bust my ass in college and lose it to someone that had it a bit easier than me and didn't do as much stuff in and out of class like I have. Lindsey did tell me something today that made me feel better in this regard. And this inadequate feeling left me to think of something else. Do I just intimidate guys? I got to thinking that none of the guys in at school have ever asked me on date. Am I just too much one of the guys? Or, am I just someone that seems so sure of herself that she seems out of reach? I don't know what to think. Just once, I'd like a decent guy to ask me out on a date. Well, the few minutes I was around Joey today, he must have sensed I wasn't too happy. He asked me if something was wrong. I blamed it on female jealousy problems and left it at that.

I'm also stressed out about all the assignments for school. I do feel a bit better about my senior project. I think I can throw it together as needed. I worked on it some today. I don't know how much I can get done tomorrow, but Friday, I don't have class, so that day will be devoted to working on it. I did set up my Vista computer to allow me to work on it, instead of lugging out the Linux box. A few things I coded on the Linux box aren't working on this Vista box. That make no sense. It should work on this computer as well. I don't know why it's not working. I'll worry about that thing later.

I got my first assignments this week. 2 were assigned for E-Commerce. I have until the 27^th of next month for one. The other in E-Commerce is a group presentation. Charles told me he wanted to work with me for any project in that class. With Charles comes Mike. Those guys are fine. These guys are pals with Derrick, who's in my Golf class. So that makes a foursome. Aaron, another guy in the IT program, wants to work with us, so we have our group pretty much decided for the rest of the semester, and the 5 of us are working on the presentation together. My other assignment is a camera comparison for Digital Photography that's due Monday.

My problem is I just have to get back into the groove of it all. Working a bit here and there on everything makes me feel better.

I ended up getting 2 CD's today, both by Peter Cetera: Solitude/Solitaire and World Falling Down. As I type this, the title track of the latter is on. They both capture the sound of the era they were released. I got these 2 because they each have songs I'm familiar with, like "Restless Heart" and "The Glory of Love." You can't even download "The Glory of Love" on iTunes. When I get my financial aid, I plan on getting the Chicago albums, starting with The Chicago Transit Authority.

[♪ Listening to: "Where There's No Tomorrow" - Peter Cetera]

Posted by Shawn at August 22, 2007 8:59 PM in General, Schooling.