The past two days have had their share of no fun. It started last night. I did something I haven't done in about 19 years, since Beth was an infant. I went to Christmas Mass. I went to the Methodist church by my house, Cokesbury United Methodist Church. Melissa's told me it was a nice church. The people noticed I was not a regular church person, but they wanted to know who I was and welcomed me back.

It was during Christmas Eve mass that it started. The crying. Oh, I was missing my mother. Last year, we did nothing for Christmas. The 25^th was just another day on the calender. This year, we were going to celebrate it. So, this was the first true Christmas without my mother. As we were signing Christmas carols in church, I just lost it. Growing up in Augusta, my mother was an organ player at our Catholic church. She played the Christmas Eve mass, when the kids were deeply involved in the service. The "professional" organ player my church had could not play an organ while the kids sang. My mother could. So, she did. So, at Christmas time, I not only sang in the kids' choir, I practiced a lot at home with my mother. I should have been hearing her sing those songs.

I was able to control myself, so I didn't sob at mass. I did have a hard time going to bed. Finally, around 3 AM, I broke down and sobbed. Well, that was fun. I had to stop crying over my mother because it was too painful to cry. The chest pain from the accident was just too much. After taking a heavy duty pain pill, I finally got to sleep.

Christmas was even better! Beth woke us up just before 11 AM to open presents. She and Matthew got some new monitors. I got a tablet for my computer. That will take me a bit to learn to use. Nicki got season 5 of 24, and Daddy got season 9 of Stargate SG-1. Just before 1, Beth went to her boyfriend's place out on the Landings to spend some time with him.

However, just before she got into the Landings, she got in a car accident! It ended up to be a fender bender. My dad was furious! All 3 of his daughters in a car accident in 9 days. So, my dad and I ran out there to be with Beth as the police and Landings security took notes on the accident. I got pictures. No one was issued a citation in the accident, since no one was a witness to it. However, there are different accounts on the accident. What the other woman said differs from Beth's account. However, it's a civil matter, so the police isn't involved, other than making the report. My dad wasn't angry at Beth. He's just angry that other people are not paying attention to the road! So, we have another accident to take care of now. However, that's Daddy's and Beth's to handle. Beth's car has some damage, but I don't think it will be totaled, like my car is!

So, with missing my mother, and having Nicki and me in one accident, and Beth in another one today, December has not been a friendly month for us, yet again. However, I think will be fine for the rest of the month. *knocks on wood*

Posted by Shawn at December 25, 2006 11:58 PM in General.