lone ly (lo-n'le-) adj., -li er, -li est.I miss my mother. She wasn't just my mother. She was my best friend. We would do things together, like see movies, travel, and the like. Since she died, I've had no one to really hang out with. I'm not lucky like my siblings. They're never home because they have a social life. I'm not as lucky. Sure, I do things, but I'm usually alone. I just suck when it comes to finding people that are willing to go see a movie or have dinner with me once in a while. After a while, it hurts. Nicki did invite me to go off and have dinner with her friends, but I declined. I'm not in the best of moods. Besides, they are her friends. I'm not going to be a third wheel. I'm sick of being the third wheel. I was always the third wheel growing up. I just wonder when it will stop. I fear it never will.1.
1. Without companions; lone.
2. Characterized by aloneness; solitary.
2. Unfrequented by people; desolate: a lonely crossroads.
3.
1. Dejected by the awareness of being alone. See synonyms at alone.
2. Producing such dejection: the loneliest night of the week.
As to why I started this rant, well, I'm not in the mood to talk about it. I just want to cry about it and then move on. It's part of my new philosophy on life. Life goes on.
Next Friday, Phi Kappa Phi will be having a showing of The Fall of Fujimori. Prior to the viewing, there will be reception for the filmmaker, Ellen Perry. The event seems interesting. However, it's somewhat formal. I hate formal dress. I have until the 19th to decide if I want to go. My dad thinks I should. I need to get through this week before deciding on if I should go.
I have a 7 page paper due for film class on the 2nd of October. It was just assigned today. I have a UNIX assignment due on Friday. It's a script to move directories. I worked on part of it today. I just feel so overwhelmed. I guess that's what I get for being a perfectionist.
[♪ Listening to: "Days In Avalon" - Richard Marx]
Posted by Shawn at September 11, 2006 8:47 PM in General, Schooling.
