I had a nightmare. My mother wasn't dead. She abandoned us. She ran away with a guy that wasn't my father, never to call us. One day, out of the blue, she returned, with the guy she ran off with. They came back in a RV. When she came into the house, which wasn't our house to begin with, I wanted to beat her. I was angry with her.
Of course, in real life, thankfully, this never happened. It's just an allegory to her death. In a way, I feel she abandoned us with her death. I know that's not the truth. She would do anything for us. I wish I knew what transpired for this dream to happen.
So, I'm in a somber mood for this morning. I fear I may cry. All because of this nightmare.
[♪ Listening to: "Gunning Down Romance" - Savage Garden]
Posted by Shawn at September 2, 2006 11:27 AM in Dreams.
I lost my dad when I was 22 years old to brain cancer. I was so angry at him for leaving when I had just found him again. My mom and he divorced when I was very young. I got over the anger eventually but never the sadness. It does get better with time.
in a way she did leave and run off with someone. i suppose if you're a believer in that sort of thing, then that man she ran off with in the dream was Jesus... and the RV could be a metaphor for the adventure that is life. or it is symbolic of the fact that nothing is permanent. living life in an RV means no place is ever permanent.
it's no reason to get angry with her if you think of that person she ran off with as "Jesus" or whomever. I am spiritual not religious so I wouldn't really know but I do understand dreams. 
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Misbah, that's an interesting way to look at it. My thing is I know I shouldn't be angry. I just wonder where it's coming from. 
Losing a parent is incredibly difficult and no one can truly understand unless they've been there. It's a club I wish I didn't belong to. Hang in there and gain strength from your memories.
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