I left class today feeling inadequate as a woman and a social person. When I'm in the honor classes, I feel like a majority of the class is smarter than me. I feel like a dolt. I have to stop and remember than just because they sound smarter than me, doesn't mean they are.

I was a little peeved when this girl was trying to tell me about enlisted income during class. I think the girl is dating a soldier. When it comes to the military, a lot of people have assumptions about it. Oh if I had a dime for all the positives ones people have on soldiers. However, I don't think most civilians understands the perspective of the military brat. Not all soldiers are gentlemen. I've seen many crude soldiers at my time at Bragg. Today's assumption was that soldiers that live in military housing don't have a lot of bills. That's not true. Soldiers living on post/base do pay for housing. Soldiers are given stipends for housing. If you live in military housing, you aren't given that stipend. it's just those in military housing have different bills than others. It just amazes me how clueless some people are in this military town.

As for the inadequate woman feelings, well, that comes from the fact I'm not dating anyone. In class, I can't related to a partnership. I'm not a girly-girl. I relate better to guys and other tomboys. This is class about women and I can't relate. I think maybe my problem is that I was raised that the only person I can truly rely on is myself.

Maybe I'm just moody.

Later this week, a friend of my mother's from Nashville is coming to visit. She's spending time in Hilton Head this week with her husband. I haven't seen her since 1992. I guess you can say I'm nervous about it.

In a nutshell, I'm feeling insecure. I'll get through it.

[♪ Listening to: "Cinderella" - Britney Spears]

Posted by Shawn at June 19, 2006 3:55 PM in General, Schooling.