Last night, I wish I had a girlfriend I could just call up and talk to. I wish I had a girlfriend to do stuff with. I wish I had a girlfriend to hangout with and make me feel better. I'm lonely. Leslie is in Oklahoma this summer, so I can't hang out with her. I've called Heather and Ari prior to my Michigan trip and never heard back from either. I know people have things to do that don't revolve around me. Most of the time, I like being solitary. However, last night, was just one of those nights I wanted a friend. I wanted someone to say it would be okay. I wanted someone to prop me up. Believe it or not, I cam make conversation with people, but I have a hard time connecting with people and being close to them. I guess I don't want my heart broken. It hurt the last time that happened. In reality, I'm lonely. Some days, it seems I've always been that way.

At the moment, I'm in the process of darkening my hair. Beth was going to do it for me, but that fell through. I can't even rely on my sisters. I hope it works. I was tired of the tri-color I was sporting. Hopefully, this new coloring will make it look a bit more natural. I wish I could be a bit more girly. To be honest, I can't even use a curling iron. In a few minutes, I need to wash this out of my hair.

In other news, I changed the layout to my MySpace profile. I got tired of the green and daisies.

[♪ Listening to: "Medley Starmania" (Live) - Céline Dion]

Posted by Shawn at June 10, 2006 1:54 PM in General.