Starting Monday is by Anne Commire. It was this month's play by the Masquers. It seems half the Masquers company took Astronomy with me. It was a well acted play. It was a long play. I heard some of the Masquers that weren't working the play that the director likes to choose long plays.

The main characters of this play are Lynn and Ellis. The play takes place in the early 1980s. The two women meet on a cruise ship and become friends. One of the friends is stricken with cancer a few years after they meet. The majority of the play is about how the two friends cope with the cancer. I teared during the playing, but I did not cry like I did with Women's Voices. It made me grateful my mother did die the way she did. She didn't suffer like cancer patients can. At least cancer didn't take my mother, like it did my paternal grandparents and maternal grandfather.

The Masquers have 2 more plays this spring: The Piano Lesson by August Wilson and The Importance of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde.

After the play, I came home and had dinner. I wasn't home until about 10:35. The ride home was nice. There was hardly any traffic on the roads between here and school. I was home in about 10 minutes. Once home, I showed my father the ΦΚΦ paperwork. He wants me to join. He's impressed with it being something I can put on my résumé. I joked that with my mother, I would have had paid the fees to join as soon as she finished the letter. So, I've got to complete the information for it. Okay, something went wrong with the form. I don't know if I've paid at all, paid $45 or twice. I'll call tomorrow about it.

The thing about joining this society is that I don't feel like I'm smart enough for it. I never feel like I'm smart enough for anything. I barely passed Calculus. I can't spell. I'm a jack-of-trades, but a master of nothing. I know, I put myself down too much. I guess I'm not sure of myself is everytime I work my confidence up, I get slapped down, and slapped down hard. It hurts. It makes me afraid to reach out.

Oh, my thing about missing my friend doesn't hurt as much as it did, well, I was wrong. The application to join ΦΚΦ is something I'd share with him. He'd probably tell me to go for it. After all, he's the one that pushed me into the Honors program. As I was watching the play last night, I was thinking how I missed those early days for our friendship. However, I can't dwell on the past. As someone once said, you can't live in the past or you'll miss your future. I've got to move one. I've got to make more friends and enjoy the one that haven't drifted away. Like tomorrow, I have a reading date at the park with my friend, Leslie. We're just going to enjoy the nice weather (provided it stays sunny) and catch up on our reading.

However, I think the thing I miss the most is running to my mother with the ΦΚΦ paperwork. I miss her getting excited. I miss her hugging me. I miss her smile. I miss her excitement whenever I did something not everyone can do. I miss my mother so much.

[♪ Listening to: "Reflection" - Christina Aguilera]

Updated 3/12/2006 7:48PM Because I don't want to create another post, but I need to mark it. I retired the "Beautiful Lipstick" skin and replaced it with my new skin I finally got working, called "Flower Power." It's currently the default skin. It can be considered a spring-time skin. I also changed the alignment of text on "Baseball" from right to left.

Posted by Shawn at March 12, 2006 2:35 PM in General, Tweaking.