Yesterday, I got a message on MySpace asking me to look at a guy. It was from someone I don't know. I checked out the person suggested to me. I'm sorry, I'm not interested. The same can be applied to the guy that messaged me through Yahoo!'s Personals. Personally, I'm not too big on facial hair. I grew up with my father being a clean shavened soldier. I had an uncle that had the facial hair. The uncle never did hurt me, but as I grew older, we grew apart, and I became scared of him. Plus, he was on the heavy side. I have heaviness running in my genes, and I don't want to add even more heaviness to my gene pool. I know that sounds really shallow, but believe me, it's not. Just trust me when I say you'd understand if you walked in my shoes. Honestly, the last guy with facial hair I allowed myself to care for has hurt me. I know all guys with facial hair won't do what he did, but at the moment, I know I'm not ready for someone to love, and I'm so hurt by this guy, I have to just stay away from other people that would remind me of him.

One of my favorite John Mayer songs is "Love Song For No One." One of the lines is "Searching all my days just to find you / I'm not sure who I'm looking for / I'll know it / When I see you." That's how I feel about love at the moment. I'll know it when I see it. Unfortunately, when I thought I found it, I didn't. I've just got to keep looking. Until then, I just have to stay focused on going to school and surviving this difficult time in my life.

Speaking of school, I got my first "I trust your answer" moment. It was in Astronomy class, when on the board, the professor drew Earth's orbit close to the Sun. She asked was that winter or summer? Because I had seen this concept many, many, many moons ago on an old Mr. Wizard's World, I knew the answer was winter. The lady next to me went with my answer, since I got a 103 on the test.

Tomorrow, I have 2 tests for my classes. Around 8 PM, there's going to be a star party. I haven't had a night of looking through a telescope since I lived in Augusta, and Mr. Webb would help my Girl Scout troop with astronomical studies. He helped us since at least one his daughters was in Girl Scouts with me. Sometimes, I would have 2 in my troop. I also have Data class. If I could get out of that class at times, I would. However, I need that class, I have every right to be in that class. Besides, I want to get out of school ASAP.

I need to get off this entry and get back to studying for my tests, plus reply to my e-mail. I'm really having a "Calgon, take me away!" month.

[♪ Listening to: "Destin" (Live) - Céline Dion]

Posted by Shawn at January 25, 2006 4:14 PM in General, Schooling.