Yesterday was my mother's memorial service. I am sorry to all the people I didn't notify about it. This past week has been a blur. I read and listen to things, but most items don't stick in my mind. I'm in a fog. I owe many people e-mails. I don't have it in me to return them at the moment.
What do I do now? Anyone want to help me? I feel lost. I feel alone. I feel as if I let my mother down. Everyone keeps telling me I haven't, but I do.
I feel angry. I want to lash out. I want to lash out about many things. Why did my mother die? I also have disappointments from prior to my mother's death eating at me.
I need to go. I've got to run to the bank. I also have a few other things I need to do today.
[♪ Listening to: "Why Oh Why" - Céline Dion]
Posted by Shawn at December 13, 2005 11:42 AM in General.
I'm sure no one is going to go off on you for not responding. we know how hard this is for you.
*hugs* i know i haven't said anything before, i just couldn't think of the words, but i have been thinking about you and your family all week, hoping that you all are ok.
I can tell you, that a lot of people in st. louis were thinking about you.
Posted by: sammi at December 13, 2005 11:49 AMShawn, a few years ago, when I was mourning someone dear to me, a friend gave me the book "Embraced by the Light" which I found enormously comforting. You might also try a bereavement support group - either in person, or I'm sure there must be good ones on the Web, also. Take care, you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Gina
