Have you ever hated someone at the same time you don't hate them? Well, I'm feeling that way at the moment. I guess you can say I feel betrayed at the moment.

Today, I have a group Networking project due. We are missing a vital piece of the project at the moment. Neither the group leader nor I, the proofreader, got the assignment over Thankgiving break. I am livid! I did my share and more of the project. It wasn't too hard for this person to do his part. I sure hope he didn't flake out on us. It's one thing for him to screw his grades for the semester. That's his choice. I just don't want him to take me down with him. I have my own academic battles to fight at the moment. The thing that gets me the most, is I told this person if he had any problems with his part of the assignment, I'd help him.

Oh yeah, I'm in a panic mode. You would be in a panic mode, too, if you had to throw together part of the assignment at 7:30 in the morning the day the project is due. Yeah, another person in the group flaked out this weekend, too. The sections both people were assigned weren't hard. We gave them their parts, knowing it was going to be hard to rely on them to come to our group discussions. I just don't see how they could flake out like this. Have they no concern for the others in their group? We're all adults. Grow up!

I sure hope I end up having to put my foot in my mouth over this post. Yes, I want to be proven that I'm worrying for nothing. I rather worry for nothing at times than to be smacked hard by the harsh reality.

I will be glad to get this semester over with. Next semester shall be more successful than this one.

Finally, lyrics that helped me cope with this morning's disaster:

Break Me Shake Me - Savage Garden

I never thought I’d change my
Opinion again
But you moved me in a way that I’ve
Never known
You moved me in a way that I’ve
Never known

But straight away you just moved
Into position again
You abused me in a way that I’ve
Never known
You abused me in a way that I’ve
Never known

So break me shake me hate me
Take me over
When the madness stops then you
Will be alone
Just break me shake me hate me
Take me over
When the madness stops then you
Will be alone

So you’re the kind who deals with the
Games in the mind
Well you confuse me in a way that
I’ve never known
You confuse me in a way that I’ve
Never known

So break me shake me hate me
Take me over
When the madness stops then you
Will be alone
Just break me shake me hate me
Take me over
When the madness stops then you
Will be alone

She says I can help you but what
Do you say
But it’s not free baby you’ll have
To pay
You just keep me contemplating that
Your soul is slowly fading

God don’t you know that I live with a ton
Of regret
’cause I used to move you in a way that
You’ve never known
But then I accused you in a way that
You’ve never known
But you hurt me in a way that i’ve
Never known

Break me shake me hate me take
Me over
When the madness stops then you
Will be alone
So won’t you break me shake me
Hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you
Will be alone

Listen baby
You’ll be you’ll be alone

Break me shake me hate me take
Me make me
Fake me break me shake me hate
Me take me
Break me

I'm just trying to figure out if I'm the breaker or the broken at the moment.

[♪ Listening to: "This Is The Heartache" - Meredith Edwards]

Posted by Shawn at November 29, 2005 9:19 AM in Schooling.