One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire

Oh another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget mama said "think before speaking"

It's amazing you can look at these archives and see something you felt but didn't realize at the time, or your expressions imply what you are really feeling. In my last post, I realize I made a jab and an implication I shouldn't have made. All I can say is I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking.

I'm just going through a point at my life that I am lost. I'm really lost. It's advisement time at school. I'm facing the fact that I'll be out of school soon. That means I'm going to have to get a job. I think I know in what part of my field I want to work in after I get out of school. I'm liking databases and web-related items. (Get back to me after I take E-Commerce next year.) It's just that I don't know if there will be any jobs for me here in Savannah in those fields. If not, where do I go to get a job? I don't know where I want to move to if I have to leave Savannah. Do I move to Atlanta? Orlando in the winter is wonderful. I could live there. I have a longing for Nashville that comes on strong in the fall. I didn't mind Baltimore the week I was there. North Carolina isn't a bad place. I have all these options available and it's just blowing my mind. I am scared of what comes next.

Oh my, I'm just a person full of fear. I wish I could remove some of this fear I have.

[♪ Listening to: "Too Many Walls" - Cathy Dennis]

Posted by Shawn at October 28, 2005 12:18 PM in General.