Bonus points for those that know what song that lyric's from.

I thought I was feeling better last night but I spent time with my mother last night and started crying again about being lonely and depressed. I know I must be driving other people bonkers with my depression. I'm sure they don't know what to think of me. Hey, guess what? I hate being depressed, too. I hate it with a passion. I cried somewhat this morning in the car, bringing my mother home from the car dealership. I cried at breakfast. I hate all this crying. I just know I could use a hug, that's for sure.

I have an appointment to see the doctor concerning my medication next Monday. I am going to correct this depression. I'm going to change my medication and hope and pray that it does work. Maybe this depression is partly caused by my medication.

Today's JAVA class was cancelled. I wasn't ready for that test we were to have today. That gives me time to work and complete my VB.net calculator. At the moment, I'm just about finished except for getting an error message to display that you cannot divide by zero. I'm trying to program that to work but it's just not doing it. I asked the professor for help and he was more than glad to help me with the other stuff I had trouble with. I need to get cracking on the flow charts for this assignment.

I found out about the scholarship I applied for. I'm justing in a holding pattern waiting for Financial Aid to process the paperwork.

So, how was my trip? It was fun, for the most part. I was annoyed when the game began and the guy next to me, a member of our party, was trying to tell me how the game was played. I know how the game is played. I wasn't decked out in my Braves gear for no reason. I just tuned him out by pulling out my radio and listening to Skip and Pete give the play-by-play from below me.

I did get some souviners worth $22.00 while there at Turner Field. I picked up an Atlanta Braves pen, an Opening Day Series pin with the Braves' A and the Mets' interlocking NYM on it, a Braves program book, and a foam tomahawk. While at the gift shop, the lady assisting me was trying to talk me into buying a hat for myself. I told her I had one. She then mention I should buy one for my boyfriend. Was that ever a depressing statement! I just chuckled and told her I didn't have a boyfriend. She then continued to the husband statement! No, I don't have one of those, either. That's why I'm partially depressed. I again laughed at the remark.

I don't want a husband now, at this moment. I don't want to get married until I'm out of school and feel like I can contribute to my family, however big or small. However, I'm getting to that age where I am weird to some people for either not being married now or not having been married before. I know that's not true, but I feel it after encounters like at the gift shop or when I went to Epworth. I'm just going to stop right there about the loneliness.

I told Nicki we need to go to a game together this year. I don't mind if I return to Section 402, Row 25, Seat 7. That wasn't a bad seat. As for the game, it was a GREAT game. I saw Brian Jordan hit a grand slam! That was the best part of the game.

Okay, I need to get back to working on this VB.net assignment.

Posted by Shawn at April 11, 2005 1:52 PM in Baseball, General.