I figured I'd do a separate post for my day yesterday. I'll just say it was a ing disaster. I was hormonal and I've slacked off my medication this week. I've been reevaluating my life this week and it just all added up to one big explosion last night. I was depressed. I was snapping every time someone would talk to me. I had my MSN Messenger away message set to pissed. I even got in a fight with Beth yesterday over the radio and told her I'd out bitch her and wasn't afraid to do it. I just didn't channel my anger properly yesterday. It came to a head last night when I got home and ripped into my mother for assuming why I was angry.

Oh, and that Elayne Boosler quote I've used before, "When women are depressed they either eat or go shopping. Men invade another country," is so true. I ended up spending about $52.00 dollars last night. I had to get out of the house. I went Wal-Mart and bought some makeup, some really comfortable underwear that was on clearance, and a new swimsuit. I then went to Target to by some more makeup since the face power at Wal-Mart was all too dark for my skin. I ended up buying in addition to the makeup, a makeup box, bobby pins, another manicure kit (I'm all the time buying those), a nail file, and some cookies.

I bought a new suit while the pickings were good. I plan on auditing swimming this summer since I enjoyed it so much last summer. I need the exercise. It's a nice, bright blue swimsuit. More of an aqua color, I'd say. It's still nice and bright. I'm trying to wear brighter colors. As for the makeup, I bought warm colored makeup. Ari said I look good in them and had a face for them. I think the pictures from Tuesday prove that so. And the underwear? Well, they are of the boy short cut. However, the material used is so soft. Every time I wear a pair of these things, I forget I have them on. I never have them bunch up on me.

I did make up with my mother last night a couple of hours after I let her have it. I think she got the hint that she was partially right about why I was upset but it was just part of the reasoning. I told her I'd take care of that myself. I had a lot more going on in my mind. Like I'd love to move out and get my own place. Or that I feel like a freak for my convictions. Or that I'm jealous Nicki has a boyfriend and keeps bring him home. Or that at age 26, I just feel like a failure in general. She also realized that since I have been slacking off on my medication this week, it was because I lacked medication in my blood to help level out my mood.

And finally, I finally change my default skin to the "…All About The Bunnies" skin. It will be default skin for Easter. I'll then change the default skin to another skin. Any ideas which should be the next default skin?

[♪ Listening to: "Chained To You" - Savage Garden]

Posted by Shawn at March 18, 2005 9:54 AM in General.