I woke up around 6 this morning and I went back to bed for an hour. I wish I didn't. I didn't have a pleasant dream. In my dream, my parents decided to move back to Nashville. They expected me to go with them since I'm a broke college student. And what did I feel? A broken heart. I didn't want to leave Savannah at this time. I didn't want to leave my job, my school, and the life I'm starting to develop on my own. I was torn. I knew going with my parents was the best thing but I loved my life as it is now. I was crying in the dream. Thankfully, I woke up just prior to being forced to choose what to do.
I wish I understood why I dreamed this particular dream. What prompted it? It's not like my parents are planning on moving from this city anytime soon. In fact, they are working on fixing this house up. All I can think of is fear of change and the unknown in my future is what prompted this dream. That and a part of my past had something to do with this dream. It seems the last time I got my life in order and the way I wanted it, in 1993, my father was assigned to Hunter while still in the military and we moved here just when I turned 15. Maybe I'm afraid that when my life finally gets to how I want it, I'll be forced to change it dramatically again.
Well this time, that's not going to happen.
And while I'm speaking of change, I think I might change my aspirations for a minor from History to Computer Science. The History minor requires 15 hours of classes at level 3000 and above. Computer Science only requires 16 hours. That seems like more until you break down the hours. The CS minor requires CSCI 1301 and CSCI 1302. Those classes are 7 hours of the minor and are actually required of IT majors. I'd only have to take 3 extra classes for the CS minor. The History minor requires 5 extra classes. Don't get me wrong, I love history. I'm one of the reasons they have 13 editions of Engineering Disasters on The History Channel. It's just I'm 26 and I need something that will help me in the real world. A CS minor will. History won't, really.
Well, I need to stop at this juncture. I have to get ready for school. I have to make some minor corrections on the Writing Center's website at work this morning and type up my flow chart for VB.net homework.
[♪ Listening to: "Crazy For This Girl" - Evan And Jaron]
Posted by Shawn at February 8, 2005 7:42 AM in Dreams, Schooling.
Fear of change... Can't say as I blame you... And sounds like the luck I would have. Just when everything seems to be going well, I get punched in the stomach with something new. Kinda like we were gonna do this and that with the tax return we got but then I found the problems with my teeth were a lot worse then I thought so now we gotta use that money we were going to put into savings to pay the co-pay on whatever work I'm going to need done... Ugh. I hate dentists... If they think they are coming anywhere near my mouth with that metal pick without giving me novicane or knocking me out first they have another thing coming!! 
