I thought I would try out the post in the future feature of the new MT. I'm writing this post on the 12th. This entry is in the dreams category because it deals with the future and how I dream it to be.
Since the Christmas season started, I've realized I've missed Christmas. I know it occurs each year. However, I miss the Christmases of my childhood. I miss the magic of it all. I miss being excited about getting the Christmas tree up the day after Thanksgiving. I miss the excitement in my soul about what Santa 
was going to leave me. I miss going to Church and singing Christmas songs while watching the Christmas pageant.
I miss Christmas, as I knew it as a young child. 
I know times change. Ever since my family moved to Ft. Bragg, where my dad was sent on a lot of overseas assignments and my Grandmother suffered a stroke, my family hasn't been the same. Christmas has lost its luster in some way. My family is still close and loves each other, but Christmas just hasn't been a bright spot for us.
I know I'm never going to recapture the magic that was my childhood Christmases. However, I hope when I have a family, my future husband and I will make sure Christmas is magical for our kids. I want my kids to want to go Christmas caroling, to want to act in the Christmas pageant, to enjoy the love that Christmas is. I want to load up the car and take my kids around town to look at Christmas lights like my parents did with us. I want to turn on the radio and hear my kids sing "Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer" and "Jingle Bells". I want to see a light in their eyes.
I know, I'm just babbling. I know I'm just dreaming. Life never happens as you plan. However, I can hope and dream that one day, I'll have some magical Christmases in my life like I used to enjoy.
I never thought I'd be the type to want kids. Now, I'm planning Christmases for them. Boy, I am no longer the chick I once was!
Posted by Shawn at December 13, 2004 12:00 AM in Dreams.
I think Christmas changes for everyone. Mine certainly aren't as magical as they were when I was a child, but I think that is probably due to life being less magical in general. Its unfortunate, but we all seem to become too grounded in reality to see the magic that is all around us.
I'm sure you'll make Christmases wonderful for your children. Its such a special time of year and I know you'll give them all so much love, that the Christmas season will make wonderful memories for your family 
You are so right about life losing some of its magic. And thanks for the comment, Chewie. However, I know I won't be having children for a while. Not at least until I'm out of college for a couple of years and married for a couple of years. I just don't know when that will ever happen. 
