This morning, my mother called early. It seems that I had left my wallet in her van, which was now on the north side of Atlanta. My bank account was the way my sister and I were to have money today. My sister became hysterical about it. She didn't want me to go to dinner with her and she claimed it was a ploy by me not to go. She screamed at my suggestions to get money. We did end up getting some money my mother Western Unioned to her. Still, she was in a sour mood and I didn't really want to go to dinner with her. I ended up going because she did calm down after she got the money. I did get upset and scream at her, too. It was not a pleasant morning.

This morning, I spent time phasing in and out of Shallow Hal on FX. During one scene between "Hal" and "Rosemary", "Rosemary" said something to "Hal" that hit very close to home for me. The quote was:

Look, I know what I am and I know what I'm not. I'm the girl who, you know, gets really good grades and who's not afraid to be funny. And I'm the girl who has a lot of friends who are boys and no boyfriends. I'm not beautiful, ok, and I never will be. And I'm fine with that. But when you go around saying I'm something that I'm not, it's just, it's just not nice.

I could so very identify with it. I had the good grades in school and had a lot of guys as pals (I would never say friends because I didn't have friends outside of high school) but never a boyfriend. I never thought I was good looking when I was younger and I have trouble believing it to be true, now.

So, Thanksgiving wasn't a total bust, but it's not one I'd want to repeat. Maybe next year will be better.

[♪ Listening to: "Extraordinary" - Liz Phair]

Posted by Shawn at November 25, 2004 5:58 PM in General.