Last night, Beth was crying. Seems some guy she's know other for a year on the Internet broke her heart. He kept telling her he didn't want a girlfriend. She liked him, and was hoping to get him to be her boyfriend. She's on a boyfriend hunt. She's 16 and thinks she must have a guy. Well, last night, this boy told her he couldn't talk to her any more because he had a girlfriend. When she told me that, I said him. There are other guys out there. Don't worry about him. During lunch today, my mother, Nicki, and I were talking about how shallow guys are. They love Beth's personality on the computer but when they meet her, that changes. I think that suck. I just want to shake all those guys that turn her down.

At times I wish I could help Beth but I have my own guy troubles. Like I never had one. At 16, she's more advance in the guy department than I am. My mother tells me that it's probably for the best that I focus on myself first and foremost and not guys like Beth does. However, I just hope all this waiting and fear of guys pays off in the end that I get a guy I want that is my dream and worth all these years of trouble. However, some days, it's hard to think I'll probably find a guy. I guess I have my standards too high.

And many guys out there are such hats. At this moment, my sister and my father at her apartment trying to get her stuff. She and her roommate allowed the roommate's ex-boyfriend to move it. Big, utter mistake! He basically used their generosity and in a sense, chased my sister out of the place. The place is trashed. He trashed it when he moved out. It's just sat and rotted after that. And he wouldn't clean while he lived there yet fuss all the time about the apartment. It was hell for my sister and she's going to live with this hell for a while. The apartment complex called her yesterday chewing her out about the apartment's condition. I know if they are called about how she takes care of a place, they'll blackball her, as they should. It's not all her fault, I know, but she should have been more firm than she is. We're too passive. She's going to get blackballed all because of a hat of a man. My parents are just grateful she's an adult so they don't become legally liable for the mess.

Man, I can have such a cold heart at times.

[Listening to: "Maneater" – Hall & Oates on Mix 107.7 (Dayton, OH)]

Posted by Shawn at May 21, 2004 6:55 PM in General.