Reading Richard Marx state that while his life is happy and he's not depressed or anything, he writes a lot of sad songs because he feels that emotion the strongest.

I think I must agree with Richard.

Saturday, the 22^nd, Beth had her Sweet 16^th party at our house. Too many kids for my liking, so I went to my room and watched a DVD. I watched All Quiet on the Western Front, the original version, not any of the remakes.

Ever since that night, I have had that movie in my mind driving me crazy.

I originally Netflixed it because we watched the first half in class and the professor said she would place a question about the movie on the final test. So, I decided to get it, watch it, and when I get the study guide for the test, I can go straight to the point in the movie she's asking about.

She warned us before the movie that all the kids died. I knew it going into the movie. However, you know parts of you are hoping that maybe all those others died but not the character they focused on in the movie, in All Quiet…'s case, "Paul Bäumer." I was hoping he would not die. He made it all the way through the movie and then when the war is just about over and "Paul" decides to do something he enjoyed prior to going to war, they kill him! Oh, I was crushed. I didn't cry but I wasn't happy about it.

In fact, I haven't been impacted so much by a movie since I saw A Walk To Remember. While the movie is nothing like the book, I knew that "Jamie Sullivan" was going to die. There would be no movie if she didn't die. However, I cried at the end of the movie. It took me ten mintues to calm down after leaving the theater.

I know that both All Quiet on the Western Front and A Walk To Remember are just movies. However, I know that out there somewhere, there could be a "Paul Bäumer" or a "Jamie Sullivan." people that are just people and probably would be a great friend for me to have if I knew people like that in real life. To know that there are people out there like dying, well, it's quite depressing. But, it makes an impact on me.

Well, this entry is going to be long. I haven't blogged in a while and I just need to let it out.

The reason I'm scare at the moment is that we are currently without Internet access at home. Money is tight at the moment so the cable had to be turned off for a bit. We plan to get it back for Christmas. It's not that bad, really. However, I do miss History Channel, Turner South, the news networks, and ESPN.

While it's annoying that I can't get on the computer and pull up information, for example if apples are grown in Belgium, when I want it, I'm not too bothered by it. I have spent my computer time at home playing games like 123 Free Solitaire and Bejeweled.

Also, I have been writing a story. It was inspired by "Christmas Day" by Dido, however, it's not connected to it at all. I've written about 11,000 words in the story and have it outlined. I'm just stuck in a rut writing a scene in the story. It's an important scene, but I can't find the right words to explain it. And while on the subject of the Dido song, it's quite depressing, too. It belongs to that same category of the movies I described above: depressing things I can't shake off.

Finally in the what-to-do-without-Internet-access department, I found some more quotes for my quotes collection. I did update that today for you to see. I also have been working on things to add to my site once I'm back on at home. It's so much easier to work on my site from home than from the school lab.

I wish I could tell you more but, I have been boring. I've told you all that I can. Well, not quite. My birthday is Sunday and I'm really not thinking about it. I'll be 25, in case you are wondering. However, watch it come and I'd start bawling like a baby. Since the 22^nd, I have just been emotional. Long story.

Well, I'm off for now. I do want to catch up on my friends, you know.

Posted by Shawn at December 2, 2003 1:57 PM in Entertainment, General.