Those words are the first lines from Mandy Moore's "Cry." I have it playing with a few other songs on my computer at the moment. I started to feel down a bit last night so I figured if I was going to get down, I better have a good reason to! So, I pulled out the A Walk To Remember DVD and watched it last night. 
I didn't bawl like a baby like the first time I saw that movie, but I did lose it a bit.
Watching that movie, it inspired me to make a list of things I want to do in my life. I guess I'll keep the list personal. 
Also, it made me want to re-read The Notebook. Misbah, I guess I need to get the other books by Nicholas Sparks, right? 
Now last night, I don't know what happened to me while I was dreaming but I had some weird sceneros in them. In one, I was being kept sent to the moon, even though I kept telling everyone once I got back to earth, I was staying. 
The second one dealt with naked Barbies all over the house and trying to keep clothing and shoes on them. O-k. And the last part I can recall vividly, dealt with my final exam. I kept fearing I only did one page of the final and turned it in. I couldn't get the exam back to finish. Since it was 25% of my grade, I kept fearing I was going to fail. Finally, lucid dreaming popped in and I remembered that my final exam is tomorrow and it's mutliple choice. 
Made me feel a little better.
And finally, the Thursday Threesome:
Onesome- Faith: Are you faithful in keeping your New Year's Resolutions?I don't make resolutions at New Year's. I make them when I fell like it. Like stop biting my nails, that resolution came in August 1999 and I've been good about it.
Twosome- Hope: ...and what are your hopes for the New Year? Getting a new job! Still going to school. Maybe fall in love with Mr Right. Ok, had to throw that one in as a joke. I just know 2003 will be better than 2002! I can feel it.
Threesome- and Charity: Do you support any causes or charities? Any special projects this time of year? This year, I can't do anything dealing with money. I just don't have it. 
In the past, if I had some extra change, I'd place some in the Salvation Army red buckets. And if we could afford it, we would donate a gift to the Angel Tree project the PX had at Ft. Bragg. My mother read about the Mysterious Santa project and asked me if I wanted to do it. Later, I saw it on the news. I'm torn. Part of me doesn't want to do it because I don't want to break my heart. It would break my heart seeing Grandmother in the nursing home. This would involve going to nursing homes. Then, part of me thinks about making those it helps feeling better, and how I would like to do that. I might talk to my mother about it some more today.
Posted by Shawn at December 12, 2002 10:25 AM in Dreams, Entertainment, Thursday Threesome.
Nights in Rodanthe wasn't among his best. It was good because he wrote it but definitely not one that moved me. By all means, get his other ones though!! I've decided that the only good thing about the movie version of Message in a Bottle is Kevin! lol, it's reason enough for me to watch it. but i still hated what they did to AWTR. That book is the equivalent of the Bible to me. Anyway, yes The Notebook is good(although Hollywood's about to destroy that one too!), Message in a Bottle(the book!!) is better and I would definitely recommend The Rescue and A Bend in the Road. He also has a new one coming out in April called The Guardian.
*squeals* I still can't believe i met him. 
I know how you feel about nursing homes. My grandmother was in one for years. She had alzhiemers. The last time I saw her was about 2 years before she died. I was so heartbroken and upset at seeing her laying there so still and not able to speak or even know who I was that I spent the whole time in the bathroom bawling my eyes out while my father spoke with her. As much as I am angry at him for what he's done, I still admire his strength he showed till this day. How he did it is beyond me. I haven't been back to a home since.
We used to go carolling with our Church at the home. I remember how much it meant to some of the people there so if I had a group or something like that to go with again, I would probably go. Yes, it's heartbreaking but seeing the joy on their faces is so worth it. Some of them haven't seen their families all year for one reason or another and something so simple as singing Christmas songs with them can really mean a lot. When we used to go I would find someone who seemed so sad or would be crying and singing at the same time and go sit with them and just "be there". Some times that's all it takes to make someone's day or for them, their life. It's so sad how some of their families treat them so to bring just a little bit of happiness, it's gotta be worth a little sadness and longing for loved ones passed on our parts. Never know, maybe being there for them will help you and not be so sad. As hard as it is for us for those few hours one day, try and think how difficult it is for them, everyday.
Just something to think about and hope it helped you figure out what you want to do. Never know, by going you could end up being someone's angel..
I have Message In A Bottle, A Walk To Remember, and The Notebook so I've read them. I guess need to get the other ones, sometime.
The one thing good about the three I have read, is that I can imagine coastal NC very well. I guess visiting it about 3 times in my 4˝ in NC will help it, right? Are all the others in NC, as well?
Trish - you posted as I was posting! After watching my movie last night and reflecting on the book, I decided I'll do it. After all, isn't this the time of year we should help others? Actually, I've also been thinking about going back to Church, too. I don't know if I want to go back to a Catholic Church or the Methodist Church, since I heard it is similar to the Catholic one. Don't worry. I'm not becoming a nun - yet! 
Hi Shawn. I've visited your site a couple of times, and I just wanted to comment on what you're doing at the nursing home. I'm a nurse, and until 2 months ago, I managed a 74 bed nursing home located on the grounds of a state mental hospital. I have also done some part-time work at a privately owned home. I agree that it is very difficult to see your loved ones in a nursing home, but sometimes it is the only option available. What I always tried to emphasize to me staff is that the nursing home is their HOME. It was my place of employment, but it was their home. Some nursing home residents are very ill and bedridden, but others are somewhat independent. Almost all of them appreciate visits from outsiders. Some of them might see their families daily while others see them only once in a blue moon. Some make perfect sense when they speak to you, and others make no sense at all. If you're uncomfortable with the very ill residents, then try to find someone who is more independent. Maybe ask a nurse which residents don't get many visitors and focus on them. However you handle it, remember that they are just old people. They're not scary, and they will likely be very happy to see you. Keep a smile on your face. If you see something that upsets you, then turn away, compose yourself, and go on. By the time you've been there a few minutes, you'll be more comfortable, and you'll enjoy yourself. Take time to get to know a couple of the residents, and you'll probably find yourself wanting to spend more time there, and you'll have added a couple of friends.
Obviously, I think what you're planning to do is a great idea.
lol, they're ALL in NC. in fact, i might spontaneously move to Edenton, NC where I don't know a soul simply because it sounded like my kind of place(as described in The Rescue).
Posted by: misbah kyrene f. at December 13, 2002 2:29 AM
