I woke up sad this morning.
I had a dream that was in two parts. The first part was really a fluff piece if you think about it but it put sadness in my heart.
The second part of the dream is the one that got me. I had Pumpkin with me in a classroom. I should have doing work and paying attention in class but I couldn't. 
I was spending time holding Pumpkin as long as I could. I knew my time holding him was short so I was trying to savor all the time I could. And when it was time to let him go, I didn't.
But then I had to wake up. Pikachu was on the bed with me. But, I didn't want to hold her. I just wanted my Pumpkin,
On the 20th, it will be a year since he left us. I miss him so much. He was more than a cat. He was my best friend. I miss holding him and loving him. He was a special cat. Even our friends loved Pumpkin.
One time we had to leave him at Nancy's home when we were in Augusta back in 1993. I remember Christy telling us that the whole family (who had their own cats, by the way) fought over who'd get to sleep with Pumpkin each night.
I do love Pikachu and I like having a cat that loves me but she's so different from Pumpkin. Pumpkin was a brave cat and Pikachu is a literal scaredy cat.
I guess I should cheer up a bit. 
I just took the Bloginality test. My Bloginality is ISFJ. Yeah, that's what I am.
I guess I should find fluff stuff to try to cheer up.
Posted by Shawn at September 28, 2002 11:26 AM in Dreams, General.
the 20th of October you mean? oh well, it's never to early to convey sympathies. i hope every day and night until then, you remember all the most wonderful things about Pumpkin...maybe even blog a particular "I remember..." each day. I'd love to read all your memories of your sweet Pumpkin. I've never had a cat but now that I have my two rabbits, I know the powerful love nonhuman companions bring. I can't even begin to imagine the pain of losing either one of them. And I know what you mean about loving Pikachu but holding an indescribably special spot for Pumpkin. I would be very saddened if anything ever happened to Annie, I love her so dearly and she is just the sweetest little thing! But I think I would be absolutely devastated if I lost Nick. Anyway, rest assured that Pumpkin is on the other side of the rainbow bridge...and maybe even keeping Pikachu safe and healthy from above.
Yes, come the 20th of October is when I lost Pumpkin. And maybe he is protecting Pikachu. Sad thing is they hated each other in real life and that broke my heart. I couldn't hold both or them. I was forced to choose.
Maybe tomorrow when I have computer time I'll post about Pumpkin.
