I Don’t Know Much…

Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 / Family, Life / Author: Shawn

Other than I feel lost.

Nicki is home now.  She was discharged today.  She’s now on her computer playing her WOW and back to normal, except for the post-surgery pain.

I did work today;  remotely.  Actually worked about 9 hours today.

Being home has made me want to come home.  And before I get into that, right now, I’m going through the process of trying to define hate.  So what is hate?  The definition is:

1. a. To feel hostility or animosity toward.
   b. To detest.
2. To feel dislike or distaste for

And right now, I guess I hate someone in my past for being so right about me.  Why did he have to be right about me most of the time?  He told me if I worked from home, I would whither away and it wouldn’t be good for me.  I would just become a recluse.  And yet at the same time. while I know working in Atlanta is good for me, at the same time, I still feel lonely.  And yet here, working from home, I felt happy.  I felt happy knowing my family is right here if I need them, and so are my friends, and I didn’t feel lonely.

What I’m saying is, I wish I could come home.  I enjoy my job, but I miss Savannah.  If only I could get them to balance out.

Even half a world away, he still gets at me.  At least I’ll admit that fact.

Listening to: Michelle Branch – “Sooner Or Later”